It has been two weeks since I left for the MOPS 2011 Convention in Nashville. Unbelievable the amount of change since then. My “baby” no longer at 26 months will even put a toe in his crib. It was HARD and it was crazy to move him into a big boy bed. But we met him where he was instead of where I wanted him to still be. For about a week now we have had mountain top moments of sleeping all night to deep valleys of praying, wishing and hoping he would sleep for more than an hour. But we are making it and he is getting it. And the best part he is happy and knows he is loved right where he is. (which is on a twin mattress on the floor with construction bedding circa Target 6 years ago — Ian’s set)
Other big changes this week include the big kids back in school. The house is bustling in the mornings and everyone so far has buy-in on getting out the door. Kaylee is loving kindergarten and her teacher that has 22 years experience!! (woo hoo) Ian is thrilled with his second year at our school and has many friends in class. All is going well. It is amazing to look back two weeks ago and our lives looked completely different.
With all this said, I am not sad. Sure a little bit of me is that they are all three growing like weeds and Ian reminds me at least weekly that I only have him 10 more years until he is gone to college. But I am more thrilled about their paths and direction. I am open for the challenges, the good ones and the hard ones. They all three know that Momma is here to listen, love and help.
I know that I am a praying momma. I pray off and on all day as they are at school. I don’t want their days to be perfect everyday. I want them to be real and applicable. Fun too! The real part is where they will really learn about friends, learning and life.
There is that saying that having children is like having your heart walk outside into the world. And I completely agree. My heart is out in the world 3 times and it has deepened my faith, my ability to love and my grasp of what it means to be inclusive and open.