I will admit I am a planner. There I have said it. Is there a planner’s anonymous meeting I can attend? Or better yet PLAN! Just kidding. I have actually relaxed a ton over the years. Motherhood has helped. It was hard at first to not understand why my husband, Amon didn’t ever pack the diaper bag or why he didn’t plan out Ian’s meals. Well he really didn’t have a chance to try. I was particular. As I gained experience in mothering, I figured out that I was planning the father of my children right out of thier lives. He had to invest, plan and do for them as I was.
Another thing that has helped is actually having 3 kids. I have relaxed a little with each. With our first I was always reading parenting books, boiling binkies and mostly freaking out about everything. Then with our second born I was calmer. I hadn’t done any incredible unrepairable damage to Ian, so I took our strong willed girl in stride. (ok… that is a complete lie… sounded great though) She was hard and she still can be. But if you boil it down, she is a little ME. Unbelievable. Sometimes I see her and it is just a mirror of myself. But at least with her challenging opinions and screaming I knew that I could at least keep her feed and alive since her brother was ok. Then with our later blessing I had really relaxed. And I am still thoughtful and careful but with all three of them I would rather have a sink full of dishes and a clutter covered counter, if we can be in the living room laughing, wrestling and having fun together. I want them to know that work and responsibilities are important but so is being a family. This time of all of under one roof is going to evaporate before we know it. My gift to them is providing a home where being home is a great place to feel heard, supported, tickled and loved.
So planning ahead, I am excited to see what I ramble about tomorrow. And we will see if I can keep up on this new adventure.
I truly feel blessed and I am trying to do everything in a way to glorify the one who made me.
A Recovering Type A++++++++ (I was an overacheiver even in overacheiving)